I Have Returned, but I Cannot Lay down My Gun
Chapter 44 Table of contents

"The weather’s not bad today."

Although it was August in the real world, it was winter in the game. No snow was falling, just a cold wind brushing against my body and sweeping across the map before disappearing. But today, there was something different in my peripheral vision—an element that wasn't usually there.

Three thousand viewers.

Logically, maintaining this momentum indefinitely would be impossible, but on the flip side, it meant that for now, I held the reins of this vast crowd.

With that in mind, Harmony came to my thoughts. Was this the kind of scene she faced all the time? The thought crossed my mind but didn't linger. Ultimately, no one else could handle this situation but me.

All I could do was show what I was capable of. But before that…

**- Please open donations! Please open donations! Please open donations! Please open donations!!!

It seemed like the first thing I needed to handle was this chaos surrounding donations or whatever it was. It felt like I had gone from riding a wild stallion to watching a fish tank full of hundreds of hungry fish. Of course, considering that I was holding the jar of fish food, it made sense.

As I sat in a corner of the base and tinkered with settings, I quickly figured out what donations were all about. It was a feature where viewers could send money along with messages or mission requests to the streamer.

I could set the minimum donation amount, but most streamers seemed to go with a base of 1,000 won. And when someone sent a large amount, many streamers would show their appreciation with a reaction or something like that.

Did I really need to do that?

"…I’ve figured out how to enable donations, but I should let you know that I won’t be reacting much, no matter how much you donate. Keep that in mind. The same goes for missions."

Since this was more of a broadcast for my own satisfaction, I figured that should be okay. I pushed the visually overwhelming chat window aside and turned on the donation feature. It wouldn’t take long for the notice to pop up at the top of the chat.

After a quick check of my gun, I made sure everything was in working order. The zeroing seemed fine, but I couldn’t trust it completely. Firing some shots myself would be the most accurate test.

So today’s session would, as always, start at the shooting range. I’d verify the zeroing with some shots at various distances, then get into the real shooting practice.

As soon as I opened donations, they started pouring in like a flood.

**<SeoulLaundryPinThiefHamDoMokHotteok donated 1,000 won.>

Or…

**<Mission registered!>
<[Time limit 3:00:00 // Mission reward: 100,000 won]>

But I headed to the shooting range without much thought. It was my first stream, and since I hadn’t decided whether I’d stream regularly in the future, I figured I could do whatever I wanted for now.

My motto was starting to take shape.

"I haven’t finished the main quests yet, so I’ll clear those after warming up at the shooting range. I’ll decide on the missions you’ve submitted after evaluating them."

In short, you could say…

I don’t want to do what you’re telling me to do.

I couldn’t help but think it was a pretty laid-back decision.

"CQB is fundamentally not about performance. It’s a systematic method of killing designed to minimize your own damage and maximize the enemy’s."

Gunfire erupted, and deafening roars filled the air. The acrid smoke stung my nose as it filled the space.

Amidst it all, a calm, gentle voice resonated.

"The weapons, explosives, and even the type of armor you use should all vary depending on the enemy you’re facing and the terrain you’re operating in—if possible."

After clearing one room and before moving on to the next, I spoke as if explaining to students, carefully sharing insights drawn from my accumulated experience. Words backed by specific actions carried far more weight than mere talk, and those gathered for my first stream were quickly being drawn into what I was saying.

And to be honest, those who found it boring had likely already switched to another stream by this point.

**"It’s a form of evolution and adaptation, or you can think of it as an advanced game of rock-paper-scissors. You consider the enemy’s condition, weapons, and armor, then make your decisions accordingly.

You all probably already know this. For heavily armored enemies, you need high-penetration rounds, but for lightly armored targets, that’s not necessary."**

Then, onto the next room.

Like cutting a cake slice by slice, I swiftly eliminated all visible enemies from the doorway and checked the room’s blind spots.

If necessary, I’d use the flashbang I was carrying, and if a malfunction occurred, I’d naturally switch to my secondary weapon to ensure the enemy was fully neutralized.

There was no wasted movement, and as a result, the time required to clear each room was reduced.

"But once you’re in combat, all you can rely on is your own and your teammates' skills. In a way, CQB is the ultimate test of both your mind and body."

Then I reached the final room.

Despite having cleared more than ten rooms, each containing at least three enemies on average, and having provided numerous additional explanations along the way, it took me just under three minutes to complete the killhouse.

Each room took about 7 seconds on average, with the longest taking 9 seconds.

As expected, someone finally chimed in.

**<EinIncubator donated 1,000 won.>

"…Ah. That’s not something I can really help with."

I hit a wall sooner than expected.

**- You failed to teach me, 'Yujin.'

There are said to be different types of geniuses in the world.

Sure, there are simple geniuses, but perhaps the true geniuses are those who can teach others what they’ve learned. Teaching what you know is a challenge in itself.

One thing’s for sure… I’m not particularly talented at teaching.

I’ve always known that, actually.

The reason I was selected as an operator was partly because of that—I survived by improvising my combat techniques rather than relying on a vast amount of experience.

I probably should have paid more attention during instructor training.

But it’s not like I don’t have my grievances.

I’ve fired countless rounds in practice, enough to fill a standard container and then some. I’ve practiced plenty, but…

I’ll have to think more about this later.

For now, it was better to share something that could bring results in a short period.

"It’s hard to pinpoint one thing you need to do, but improving your basic accuracy is crucial. Let me show you a good practice drill for that."

I waved my hand to set up a target and then brought it to life.

A terrorist appeared 25 meters ahead, holding a hostage by the neck and using them as a shield while fleeing.

It was a shooting drill that Delta Force instructors had relentlessly put me through. It was designed to hone both shooting skills and nerve, so you could maintain accuracy even in high-pressure situations.

I carefully aimed for the head and continued my explanation.

"People say you need precise aim tracking to hit moving targets, but that’s just one method."

As I continued, I explained that while things change if the target moves unpredictably, most enemies tend to maintain their initial direction and speed.

It was a lot like a rhythm game. Instead of moving your body to align the crosshairs with the target’s head, you set the crosshairs along the expected path and fired at the precise moment.

But while it was easy to say, it took a lot of trial and error and practice to master bullet drop and speed.

All special forces operators weren’t just born with this ability. They shot until such seemingly impossible feats became second nature.

I held my breath slightly, confirmed the enemy’s head was perfectly aligned with my crosshairs, and pulled the trigger reflexively. The hologram shattered and scattered.

I half-ignored the amazed reactions in the chat and added,

**"Ultimately, all of this is just practice to hit what you want, when you want. So just keep in mind that this is one way to do it.

Since the goals of all the viewers watching my stream might be different, think first about which aspects you want to improve. Then I can help point out specific areas for you."**

**- What? Does this mean 1-on-1 coaching content?

**<GymWeightPlateThiefYujin donated 1,000 won.>

"At first… I thought it might be tough for her, but honestly, she’s above average. Her mental strength and perseverance are definitely way above that of a typical person. Even when she says it’s hard, she keeps up with my pace…."

…Maybe it’s her stubbornness and mental fortitude as a content creator—or a garbage game connoisseur, I should say—that’s kept her going.

And as if to confirm my cheeky thoughts, the chat continued.

**- If you keep finding all sorts of weird games, your mental toughness will naturally improve, LOL.

Something about the chat seemed ominous, but surely, they wouldn’t recommend a game that was too difficult for me… right?

Hoping that future wouldn’t come, I stood up.

"…Anyway, I suppose I’m in no position to lecture, given that I haven’t even cleared the main missions. This is just hypothetical, but if I do start streaming, let’s revisit this topic after I’ve achieved some in-game accomplishments."

My next destination was West Point—the U.S. Military Academy.

Normally, you’d have to sneak in via boat along the Hudson River, but after completing some side quests with Harmony, I unlocked various transportation options, including a helicopter.

As I called in the helicopter, I added,

"I’ll need to clear some missions first. I’ll try climbing the PVP ranks after I’ve chosen a category."

There was still plenty left that I hadn’t explored.

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