The sensation of vomiting up hot, clotted blood is unpleasant every time. The burning pain in my throat, the metallic tang of blood rising from within… though I suppose it’s pointless to think about comfort when I’m coughing up something that should be circulating inside my body.

“Cough… cough…”

Despite my attempts to stay calm, my body kept expelling blood clots. Whether it’s hemoptysis or hematemesis, spitting up blood is never a sign of a healthy condition. My body may look fine on the outside, but internally, it’s a complete wreck.

‘I might really die here…’

I’m used to enduring …