I've been thinking this for a while, but I think Jun's fears of being outed has twisted him up and turned to self hatred, but he hasn't realized that. He keeps saying Yohan's behavior is disgusting, but deep down, he really likes it. He's just really calling himself disgusting and projecting it onto Yohan, because that's how he believes society views him, which might be true to some extent. He also knew that Yohan has liked him since high school. There were so many people who confirmed it. I think he just got so far in his head to deny it, because he's really denying himself and what he is. He was also left alone and neglected by his parents, so he doesn't really understand love to recognize what it actually looks like. And before anybody comes for me, I have not forgotten how Yohan has treated him or allowed others to treat him in the past. I'm just looking at things from Jun's perspective to gain a better understanding of him. He's had a lot of character development, but still needs more work. The author did really great in making the inner turmoil of someone who is gay growing up and maturing as realistic as possible.

Thnx for the chapter 🙏

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