Jiang Yan felt his hands were warm, but when Gu Fei closed his eyes, a small teardrop in the corner of his eyes slid on his fingertips, and he still felt the temperature.
Little temperature with Gu Fei's emotions.
At this moment he felt as if someone was grasping it and twisting it.
He didn't say anything, and didn't know what else to say. Gu Fei's emotions were never exposed. Even in front of himself, he would control as much as possible.
This is the second time.
For the first time, he saw Gu Fei sinking in the bottom of the black river with his eyes closed.
The second time, he saw Gu Fei, who was defeated separately and missed like him.
He has nothing to say, as long as he speaks, he will definitely cry with Gu Fei.
He can't cry now, he can no longer add more thoughts to Gu Fei, he just wants to hold Gu Fei, so that he can feel his existence, alive, warm, in his arms.
Gu Fei, who really can hold it in his arms, as he wants.
The bathroom was quiet, except for the low hum of the ventilator.
I couldn't hear Gu Fei's tears, but I could hear the heartbeat. Jiang Yan didn't know whether this heartbeat was his own imagination or true, and he didn't know whether the heartbeat was from Gu Fei or his own.
He closed his eyes, squinting Gu Fei tightly, grasping Gu Fei's clothes tightly, as if trying to seize a little bit of time away.
One minute and one second.
Time is a very annoying thing.
Lively and cold.
I do n’t know how long it took, Gu Fei bowed his head and gave him a soft two-times shoulders: "It's all right, will you take a bath? Or come back after dinner?"
"Ah?" Jiang Yan hadn't had time to completely suppress the uncomfortable feelings in his heart, and Gu Fei's control of emotions was at the **** level.
Gu Fei has patted his back gently: "Are you going to take a shower now?"
"Come back and wash," Jiang Yan sniffed. "Wash your face, anyway, you can't sleep without washing before going to bed at night."
"Um." Gu Fei released him, turned and bent over to turn on the faucet.
After pouring a handful of water onto his face and drying it, he turned his head, and Gu Fei had recovered his usual appearance.
"Do you want to take a bath?" Jiang Yan asked.
"No, wash them together at night," Gu Fei smiled, "bath."
Jiang Yan laughed: "You are the most shameless person I have ever seen in my life."
"It's a lifetime," Gu Fei said, "you will meet many people in the future, the most and the most."
"You are the most," Jiang Yan squeezed him away and said, while washing his face, "the most handsome, the smartest, the coolest, the most adorable, the most talented, and the most ... reluctant."
"Then I can only follow the same." Gu Fei said.
"What's up?" Jiang Yan's head was still a little dull, and he didn't respond.
"Come on you." Gu Fei said with a smile, turned around and went out.
"Get out of here!" Jiang Yan came back to God, "I'm going to go back to the same place! Who do you go to!"
Gu Fei laughed for a long time, touched the cigarette, came out, and stood by the window.
I don't know what time it is now, Gu Fei is too lazy to take out his cell phone to see it, but the sky outside the window is already dark.
When you look up, you can see the less obvious night, and when you look down, your eyes are bright, and the lights and flickering neons are connected.
"What are you looking at?" Jiang Yan stepped beside him.
"Look at the bustling metropolis." Gu Fei said.
"Well, after all, the capital," Jiang Yan said, "if it is a steel mill, it will be completely dark now."
"Yeah," Gu Fei smiled, "the street lights are off."
"Have you been here before when you ran out on your own?" Jiang Yan asked.
"No," Gu Fei shook his head. "If you weren't here, I wouldn't have come in my life."
"It'll last a lifetime," Jiang Yan learned from him. "In the future, we will go to many such places, big cities, small cities, mountains, seaside, on the side of the mountain, on the other side of the sea ..."
Jiang Yan said that he was inexplicably but sang very smoothly.
"There's a group of smurfs ..." Gu Fei followed and followed.
They changed their clothes and were going to eat.
Out of the room, Jiang Yan also ran to the door of Pan Zhi's room next door and knocked, but no one responded.
"I'm definitely out of the room right now," Gu Fei said, "I'm definitely waiting to call us in the lobby."
"What time is it?" Jiang Yan asked.
"Dare to look at the phone," Gu Fei said, "I think Pan Zhi's table may be cancelled. How should we face him?"
"Frankly face to face." Jiang Yan cried.
Pan Zhi was sitting in the lobby bored and playing with his mobile phone. When they passed, Pan Zhi was holding a mobile phone and taking a selfie.
"Handsome guy." Jiang Yan called him.
"I fuck," Pan Zhi stood up with a liberated expression, and then changed into a word that was difficult to say. "No, aren't you two too late to catch the clock? After dinner, there is a long night. Is this a while? "
"What do you mean?" Jiang froze.
"How expensive are the kits in the room," Pan Zhi said as he dialed his mobile phone. "It's not a loss, it's better to buy a box after dinner ..."
"Fuck?" Jiang Yan looked at Gu Fei in shock.
"Frankly." Gu Fei reminded him.
"Frankly face it," Jiang Yan twisted his face and looked at Pan Zhi again. "We didn't ..."
"Hey!" Pan Zhi dialed the phone. "I booked a table today ... Pan An, yes, I am now ... don't cancel! Whatever it takes, I'm past now! I just called and asked not to cancel ! "
"My image is gone." Jiang Yan said.
"What kind of image does his grandson have with his predecessor?" Gu Fei smiled and put his arm on his shoulder.
"Sister!" Pan Zhi, who was still imposing just now, suddenly changed her voice. "Sister, don't cancel it. I promise to go. I'll go there in ten minutes. Really, you have to think of a way to let the table guests re- Wait a seat, I am here for a treat, a very important guest, it's about my face ... "
Jiang Yan and Gu Fei stood at the door of the hotel, watching the traffic on the road, waiting for Pan Zhi to make a fuss about the hotel front desk to give up the table they had been canceled for the guests who came to the store.
Two minutes later, Pan Zhi beckoned: "Hurry up, just go ahead."
"Stay at the table?" Jiang Yan asked.
"Ten minutes," Pan Zhi looked at the time. "You two are really testing my social skills."
"We ..." Jiang Yan wanted to say that the two of us really didn't use condoms in the room, but wondered how to explain why they stayed in the room for so long, so they didn't talk.
"Wait for me." Pan Zhi suddenly ran into a flower shop on the side of the road.
When I came out, I took a beautifully packed rose in my hand.
"Why?" Jiang Yan looked at him.
"Not for you two," Pan Zhi said.
"Kneel down and ask me, I don't want to," Jiang Yan said.
"No hoe," Gu Fei said.
"How could a man like me who is so steadfast and unyielding kneel down and beg you!" Pan Zhi said and glared at Gu Fei, "You are such a good match."
The restaurant is not far away. It is a Sichuan restaurant. The business is very hot. No wonder the booking was cancelled as soon as it expired. It is said that it is not easy to accept a booking.
"Sir?" Yingbin asked with a smile.
"Booked the table, the last name is Pan." Pan Zhi said.
"Mr. Pan, the table you ordered is on the second floor, please go over here ..." Pan Zhi was interrupted before the words of Yingbin were finished.
"Who picked it up when I called?" Pan Zhi asked.
"The waiter at our front desk." The welcome pointed aside.
"Calling that?" Pan Zhi looked at it.
"Yes." Yingbin nodded.
"You go up first," Pan Zhi looked back at Jiang Yan, "I'll be a while."
"You ..." Jiang Yan glanced over to the front desk. The little girl who looked down to answer the phone was pretty. He sighed and looked at Yingbin. "Is it the second floor?"
"Yes, table 35 on the second floor. Waiters will take you there." Yingbin said.
When walking upstairs, Jiang Yan glanced back again. Pan Zhi had already reached the front desk. He stretched out the rose in his hand in front of the little girl who just answered the phone. , The little girl suddenly smiled a little embarrassed.
"Has he always been like this?" Gu Fei was also looking back, "It's almost flowing."
"Ah," Jiang Yan smiled for a long time. "That's it for junior high school, very shameless."
"Don't follow him." Gu Fei said very seriously.
"I can't learn this," Jiang Yan said very seriously. "This kind of ability brought out of the mother's womb, he has lost love in kindergarten."
"Fuck." Gu Feile.
Pan Zhi added the WeChat of the girl at the front desk before going upstairs, and sat in front of them: "Are you ordering?"
"Wait for you," Jiang Yan said, "we won't."
"Did you just see that little girl?" Pan Zhi took the menu and turned it over. "It's so cute, it's fun to talk, it's like a little jumping bean."
Neither Jiang Yan nor Gu Fei spoke, watching him together.
"Oh, that little girl is female." Pan Zhi said.
"I don't have the habit of staring at men wherever I go." Jiang Yan sipped tea.
"I know you're both," Pan Zhi sighed. "I'll have to run into it. I can't find it everywhere. How can I come across the one I want to be single, right?"
"It makes so much sense that I'm speechless." Jiang Yan smiled.
"No, just him," Pan Zhi pointed at Gu Fei, "how far have you run before you met."
Jiang Yan glanced at Gu Fei and said nothing.
"But," Pan Zhi beckoned and called the waiter to order. "I'm at least a little better than you now. I don't need to experience the uncomfortable part. If you don't take it seriously, it won't hurt. . "
"It's not that you can't be serious if you don't think seriously." Gu Fei said.
"Look at me?" Pan Zhi looked at him.
"Watch and see." Gu Fei circled his hands and placed his eyes on him.
When Pan Zhi will be "uncomfortable", Jiang Yan does not know.
He only knew that he had been uncomfortable for a long time, from vaguely to deliberately avoiding, to hiding in panic for a while, and finally to the present.
He didn't want to go back to the time on his mobile phone anymore, and didn't want to see the time with his own eyes, so he just pulled away the time that was between him and Gu Fei.
After eating and returning to the room to take a bath, they both leaned on the bed and watched TV.
Silent most of the time, and occasionally a few words that have nothing to do with parting.
At last Gu Fei turned off the TV and lights, Jiang Yan lay down, turned around and caught him, put his legs on him, and closed his eyes.
Maybe because they hadn't slept the night before, they went to sleep soon after the lights were turned off.
When Jiang Yan opened his eyes in the morning, Jiang Yan was even a little annoyed, and felt like the night had passed.
"Pan Zhi said that it can be delivered to the room early," Gu Fei said, "Do you want to eat now? I'll call the waiter to bring it?"
"Um." Jiang Yan was next to him.
"You can just report after you finish eating, just walk around." Gu Fei added.
"Ah." Jiang Yan answered with his eyes closed.
The school is very close to the hotel. Pan Zhi did not follow him when he checked in. He left the room and returned to his school. When he left, he said, "Gu Fei's car tomorrow morning, right? The subway entrance is over there. Just take the subway. "
"Um." Gu Fei nodded.
"I won't give you away," Pan Zhi said. "Don't bother you too much, and you'll be on vacation for more than half a month."
"Hurry up," Jiang Yan said.
"Scum man," Pan Zhi said.
"Let's go, the man doesn't know the number." Jiang Yan smiled.
After Pan Zhi turned away, he sighed softly.
In his head, "Gu Fei will return the day after tomorrow", and Pan Zhi's words "tomorrow morning" shook his heart.
Not the day after tomorrow, it will be tomorrow, and it will be tomorrow morning.
Starting tomorrow morning, he will be alone, in this strange city, in a strange crowd.
Jiang Yan didn't talk much, and Gu Fei couldn't find a topic to talk about, so he could only be silent.
It didn't take long to go down the road to R, Gu Fei suddenly became nervous, and suddenly he didn't adapt.
He rarely felt that way, but now he really felt it.
There are many new students coming to report and many parents. Everyone's face is written with joy and pride. They are like Jiang Yan, they are all kinds of school tyrants.
Gu Fei glanced at Jiang Yan, and Jiang Yan's face was calm. His feelings in his heart were definitely different from his own. This was the place where he wanted to start a new life, first-rate school, and top professional.
Jiang Yan is his pride, and it is also the source of his confusion.
"Go there and ask how to report." Jiang Yan said.
"Um." Gu Fei nodded and followed him through the crowd.
The front of the School of Law is very lively. There is a table under the awning. Many volunteers are answering the new students. There are various welcome boards on the side. Many new students take photos in front of the boards.
Gu Fei did not follow Jiang Yan to the table, he stood outside the crowd and looked at Jiang Yan.
Soon there was a girl who brought Jiang Yan to the table next to him. Jiang Yan looked back as he walked and Gu Fei raised his hand.
Jiang Yan waved at him and motioned for him to pass.
"Are you reporting here?" Gu Fei walked to him.
"Well," Jiang Yan nodded. "It's very troublesome, the ID card admission ticket ... I got the registration card and went to the next procedure."
"Um." Gu Fei looked at the people around him.
"Don't be too far away from me," Jiang Yan whispered as he pulled out his things from the bag, "don't go more than five steps."
"What's wrong?" Gu Fei smiled.
"Not very much," Jiang Yan said, "I'm sure to see you."
"OK." Gu Fei squeezed on his shoulder.
Jiang Yan turned and went through the formalities. Gu Fei stood behind him and watched. Every time he moved, Gu Fei followed.
Information check, enrollment registration, payment of fees, and volunteers to bring them. These procedures were fast and smooth, and finally Jiang Yan took a bunch of things and walked to him: "Help me."
Receipts, campus cards, student IDs, school badges, etc. There are also invitation cards for clubs, college propaganda cards, etc. There are a lot of things, Gu Fei puts them all in the separate box in his bag: "Now What about? "
"Go to the dormitory. The dormitory is on the first floor. It's very good. You don't need to climb the floor," Jiang Yan smiled.
"Can I go in?" Gu Fei asked.
"Yes, I usually have to swipe my card. I can get in with parents these days," Jiang Yan looked at him. "You are my parents."
Gu Fei did not speak and smiled.
One of the seniors who was probably a volunteer came over and brought a few other boys and parents.
"Jiang Ye," the senior called Jiang Ye, "Let's go, I'll take you to the dormitory."
"OK." Jiang Yan answered.
A few of them were undergraduate boys, and they chatted without taking a few steps. Where did they come from? How many minutes did they start with? Jiang Yan didn't talk much, and the others were very lively.
"Hey?" A guy looked at Gu Fei, "Know me, my name is Zhang Ping. What about you? Where is it?"
"I ... not a freshman." Gu Fei was a little embarrassed suddenly.
"Senior?" Zhang Ping asked again.
"My friend," Jiang Yan said, "accompany me."
"Oh, your friend," Zhang Ping nodded with a smile, and asked again, "Which school?"
Gu Fei didn't know how to answer this question. He didn't mind telling anyone his school, but their teacher's college, in front of a bunch of R ** college students, only Jiang Yan knew it.
He suddenly wondered what to do with such a scene.
"Our teacher in the hometown," Jiang Yan said, "is here to accompany me."
"Ah, that's really an iron buddy." Zhang Ping said.
Jiang Yan nodded with a smile, his feet slowed, and Gu Fei slowly walked to the end of the group.
The senior took them to the dormitory building, and gave them one by one to find their dormitory by room number before leaving.
They entered Jiang Yan's dormitory. It is said that the condition of this dormitory building is relatively good. It seems that it is really good. They are both a bed and table structure. There is a room for four.
Someone was already in the room. A boy and his parents were cleaning the table.
"Hello," Jiang Yan said hello. "My name is Jiang Yan."
"Zhao Ke," the boy turned his head, pointed to the bed by the window, "where is your bed, and I've cleaned it."
"Thank you," Jiang Yan said.
"You're welcome." After Zhao Ke said, he looked over to Gu Fei.
"I'm his friend." Gu Fei said.
"Oh," Zhao Ke nodded, and said to his parents next to him, "I said that I came over by myself, and they didn't let my parents follow."
"We're traveling," his mother said. "Hello, you will be a dormitory in the future. Take care of each other. Don't fight with each other. Just fight.
"... Oh." Jiang Yan answered.
"What about your luggage?" Zhao Ke asked.
"I will come here tomorrow, and bring things tomorrow." Jiang Yan said.
"Oh." Zhao Ke continued to clean the table again.
Taking a look in the dormitory, Gu Fei accompanied Jiang Yan around the building in the dormitory building and became familiar with the environment.
"There is a supermarket," Jiang Yan said. "It's quite convenient to buy food."
"Well," Gu Fei smiled. "The first reaction is to eat, and they don't sell big flowers."
"Don't talk about big flowers, I'm hungry ..." Jiang Yan pressed his stomach. "Let's go, let's eat something."
"Not going around in school?" Gu Fei asked.
"Turn around later, a lot of time, for years." Jiang Yan said.
"Um." Gu Fei nodded.
When walking along the road to the gate of the school, Jiang Yan looked around all the time. Gu Fei could see that although Jiang Yan was not very upset, he would still be excited and curious about this long-awaited campus.
Gu Fei has also been watching. This is the place where Jiang Yan will stay for several years. Every time he glances more, he remembers one more time in his mind. When he imagines Jiang Yue's life at school, he will get a real point.
However, every time he felt one more point, his faint panic increased.
gap.
This kind of real gap is clearer than any imagination before him.
The thick feelings in some of the buildings in the school that don't look pretty, and the seniors and sisters walking around, can obviously feel the confidence in the bones.
Gu Fei started to feel a little down from the time he went through the formalities. Jiang Yan can clearly feel that he has fewer and fewer smiles and words.
Maybe it's because of the difference, maybe because ... Jiang Yan suddenly regretted asking Gu Fei to accompany him to the school, and any reaction of Gu Fei would make him distressed.
He glanced at Gu Fei, who was turning his head and wondering what he was looking at.
"Boyfriend," Jiang Yan bumped lightly on his shoulder, "what do you want to eat?"
"Listen to my boyfriend." Gu Fei turned and smiled.
"I don't know," Jiang Yan took out his cell phone. "Anything to search for nearby?"
"OK." Gu Fei nodded.
"Gu Fei," Jiang Yan asked while asking, "Can you tell me what are you thinking?"
"Huh?" Gu Fei froze.
"You're not happy, except because you're leaving tomorrow," Jiang Yan stared at his cell phone. "What else?"
"... Yes," Gu Fei said.
"What is it?" Jiang Yan looked over at him.
Gu Fei was silent for a few seconds and turned to look at him: "That Zhao Ke."
"Ah?" Jiang Yan said.
"He is handsome." Gu Fei said.
"Who?" Jiang Yan was still at a loss.
"Zhao Ke." Gu Fei said.
"Zhao Ke?" Jiang Yan glared at him. "I rely on, who do you know for a while? Are you handsome?"
"... I served you," Gu Fei didn't help but laughed. "Brother, can you give your brainpower to those" useless things "to even IQ? Your classmates , Zhao Ke! "
"I fuck," Jiang Yan still glared at him. "His name is Zhao Ke? I don't know if I forgot or didn't remember it at all!"
"Hurry up and remember, otherwise you won't remember how embarrassing someone's name is," Gu Fei said.
"Oh, Zhao Ke, Zhao Ke," Jiang Yan thought for a while, "is he handsome ... I honestly didn't pay attention ..."
Gu Fei sighed with a smile.
"Are you jealous in advance?" Jiang Yan asked again.
"Um." Gu Fei nodded.
"Put your boomerang fart." Jiang Yan frowned.
"Civilization, anyway, it's a student of a prestigious university." Gu Fei scratched his shoulder.
"I know what you're thinking, you can just hold it if you don't say it, anyway, you'll just take this," Jiang Yan said, "but remember what I said."
"Um." Gu Fei looked at him.
"I don't like that small broken city, and I don't like the people in the broken place of the steel mill," Jiang Yan said, "but I still don't want to be there, that city, that steel mill, because I picked you out there. . "
Gu Fei did not speak.
"No matter where I am, I can still pick you out at a glance," Jiang Yan said. "You are different from others. I have said before that you are different from everyone. Even if you say, I still There will be many people, but no matter how many people there are, there will be no second Gu Fei. "
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