After walking around the old dormitory area twice, neither of them spoke.
Jiang Yan didn't know what Gu Fei was thinking and how he felt. He felt countless words to say, but he couldn't say anything when he was about to speak, not even a word to his mouth.
What each of them experienced during this month is unknown to each other, and they can only be judged by their face and condition. Jiang Yan can see that Gu Fei is not doing well.
"Go in and sit for a while," as he turned to the third lap, Gu Fei finally pointed to a small cake shop on the side of the road and said, "It's too windy."
Ok. Jiang Yan answered.
But no sound.
I fuck! He cleared his throat quickly and hummed again.
There is a sound this time.
Is this still a stress response? Is Jiang Ye helpless, or is it a stress sequel? He just wanted to laugh when he was ringing.
There was no one in the cake shop. Gu Fei bought two cups of hot tea and two pieces of cake and put them on a small table near the window.
Jiang Yan sat down, just reached out and took the milk tea in front of himself, and Gu Fei took the milk tea from his hand again: "I forgot to get angry or don't drink milk tea first, I'll get another ..."
"No," Jiang Yan grabbed the sleeves of his jacket and pulled. "Not so serious, don't toss."
Gu Fei hesitated and sat down.
The two were facing each other with truffles and buns.
"Did you buy a new lens?" Jiang Yan asked.
"Um." Gu Fei nodded.
"Originally," Jiang Yan bite the straw, slowing down her speech as much as possible, so that her voice is not so dumb, "I want to call you first, but I don't know if I can get through, so ..."
"I changed my old phone," Gu Fei said softly. "I found Pan Zhi and wanted to ask him where did you go on vacation, he ..."
"Did you delete it?" Jiang Yan smiled.
"Well," Gu Fei drank a cup of milk tea and pushed the cake in front of him. "This ... It's delicious, I tried it before when I bought it for Ermiao."
Jiang Yan didn't speak, took the cake and took a bite.
Didn't taste it.
He couldn't say whether it was good or bad at the moment, it was stuffy, very stuffy.
After forcing the cakes all over, Jiang Yan wiped his mouth: "Let's ... say the business."
"OK." Gu Fei said.
"In this case, I made my own claim. I was afraid that you would be under pressure. I never told you," Jiang Yan drank milk tea. "I just want to see if there is any way for Ermiao's illness."
Gu Fei didn't say anything, turned his head down and turned the cup.
"I went to several hospitals and asked the doctor. If Ermiao couldn't get over, there was no way," Jiang Yan cleared his throat. "So I thought about reading the psychology book first, and then I told Zhao Ke. Here ... "
Jiang Yan glanced at Gu Fei, and was a little worried that Gu Fei would be unhappy because others knew about it, but Gu Fei didn't have any special reaction and kept his head down.
"His sister Zhao Ke, who happened to be a graduate student in clinical psychology at University B, introduced Xu Xingzhi to ..." Jiang Yan swallowed.
"Xu Xingzhi?" Gu Fei looked up.
"Just that ..." Jiang Yan cleared his throat again. "Just that senior."
"Um." Gu Fei nodded and stood up.
Jiang froze and watched him go to the drinking fountain next to him and pick up a cup of warm water before sitting back.
"Drink water." Gu Fei put the water in front of him.
"Oh." Jiang Yan took a few sips of water.
The water was quite hot, and the eyes were a little hot when the steam hit the face.
"When you called that day ..." Jiang Yan said here, and suddenly remembered what Gu Fei said on the phone that day, every sentence was like a needle, which made him twitch in his heart. Thought, but he still stopped slowly, "I wanted to tell you, but it was too late."
"Sorry," Gu Fei said.
Sorry. This is what Jiang Yan doesn't want to hear.
Who is sorry for who? He doesn't know. This is a thing that is not right or wrong, and it is impossible to distinguish between right and wrong.
"Xu Xingzhi is the only person who can come to see Ermiao and treat Ermiao now," Jiang Yan took another sip of hot water. "Although he hasn't graduated yet, he is a very important student, so ..."
Jiang Yan bit his lip and looked up at Gu Fei: "I want him to try it and touch Ermiao."
"Um." Gu Fei also looked at him.
"This matter requires your consent, and it requires your cooperation," Jiang Yan said with some difficulty. "If you think ... not appropriate ..."
"OK." Gu Fei said.
Jiang Yan looked at him: "Do you agree? Would you like to cooperate?"
"Um." Gu Fei nodded.
Jiang Yan said nothing, stared down at the hot air coming out of the cup, and let out a breath.
But then, the feeling of fever in the eye socket appeared again, as if this breath exhaled any barrier in the body, and tears burst out suddenly.
He didn't even have time to react, and two big tears dripped into the cup.
I fuck.
Jiang Yan felt that he was really sad from the bottom of his heart. He had a strong desire to find out if there was a lacrimal gland surgery.
He had to hold his head down and blink hard at the mouth of the cup.
"Brother," Gu Fei pumped a tissue, and hesitated into his hand. "Everything you do, I remember, I really ..."
When Gu Fei shoved the tissue into his hand, he touched his tiger's mouth with his fingertips.
Very light, almost a little touch.
This is their only physical contact from October to the present.
"Gu Fei," Jiang Yan grabbed the paper and rubbed it a few times in his eyes, raised his head and looked at him, "Do you know? I don't want you to remember these, you just do so because you remember too clearly of."
Gu Fei looked at him but didn't speak.
"I feel like I have a lot to say before I come back," Jiang Yan took a deep breath, leaned back, leaned his head and looked at the empty street outside the window. He hadn't seen such a clean scene for a long time. The coldness in the air made people calm down slowly. "I'm a little excited now, and I can't say anything."
"I also ..." Gu Fei held the tea cup in his hand and unconsciously circled on the table. "Yes."
"Let's put something else aside," Jiang Yan said, "Xu Xingzhi will also be here for a few days, let him first contact Ermiao, judge her condition, see if there is any treatment plan, and there is How to continue treatment in the future. "
"Well, okay." Gu Fei nodded.
"I'm afraid Ermiao has resistance," Jiang Yan turned to look at Gu Fei. "You go and talk to her first at night? See a big brother tomorrow?"
"Well, let me talk to her first." Gu Fei said.
Jiang Yan looked at him, in fact, he wanted to ask, what happened to Gu Fei that day, why did he suddenly break the connection and suddenly said, "Forget it."
But in the end, he didn't ask, Gu Fei's scars were nothing more than his family. There was no need to reveal the need to make Gu Fei hurt again.
When they came out of the cake shop, the two went back silently and walked downstairs to the rented house. Gu Feicai said, "I'll call you tomorrow?"
"Um." Jiang Yan answered.
"Then I ... go back first," Gu Fei said, "tomorrow ... have a meal together?"
"Well," Jiang Yan nodded. "I'll go upstairs then."
Gu Fei turned and left. Jiang Yan stood still and looked at Gu Fei's back. This back was still familiar in his memory. He could remember the walking posture and pace.
... don't think about it anymore.
Thinking too much, too much to say, on the contrary, both people are a little helpless.
When he turned and walked down the corridor, Yu Guangli saw Gu Fei turning his head.
"Jiang Ye, you're too boring," Zhao Jin said while leaning on his ribs. "Don't tell me about your relationship before you come."
"I ... forgot." Jiang Yan said.
"This meal I treat," Zhao Jin took a sip of soup. "Remembrance the day I plunged into a pile of little guys."
"Sister," Pan Zhi looked at her, and said sincerely, "I'm not, little guy."
"Oh," Zhao Jin looked at him, "Is it regrettable?"
"I ..." Pan Zhi sighed, "Yeah, yeah."
Zhao Jin smiled for a long time: "Have you ever been here before? Take your sister out to play tomorrow. They are going to see their sister, so let's not mess up."
"No problem." Pan Zhi nodded immediately.
The hotel where Zhao Jin and Xu Xingzhi lived was booked by Pan Zhi. After eating, Pan Zhi sent Zhao Jin to the hotel first, and Xu Xingzhi and Jiang Yan continued talking in the hotel for a while.
"That's almost it. Tomorrow I will probably talk to Gu Fei first," Xu Xingzhi said, "and then contact Gu Miao after communication. Is there any convenient place in your neighborhood to talk?"
Jiang Yan thought for a while: "Maybe we got our school, and there is a cafe that feels like it is going to close. If there is a holiday, there will be almost no one in it."
"That's fine," Xu Xingzhi smiled. "You go back to rest, and your face is a bit ugly."
"Um." Jiang Yan touched his face.
Today's weather is good. There is no snow. It can be seen early in the morning that Gu Fei will be out today. Gu Fei stands at the door of the shop, holding a cigarette, watching Gu Miao walking on the skateboard against the north wind.
He looked down at the time on the phone, and it was a little early to call Jiang Yan.
He woke up too early and didn't fall asleep that night. I don't know if it was because he was so upset or because he slept in the rental room for an afternoon yesterday.
Had it not been for Jiang Yan's sudden appearance, he might have been able to sleep until night.
Opening his eyes to see Jiang Yan's feeling at that moment, he still felt like he was in a dream.
Jiang Yan lost a lot of weight. Without his memory, he would always be filled with the feeling of "I am the best" on his face.
His throat was also dumb, and it must not be because of the anger, and even the barbecue that had been eating for several days may not have become anger. He had not known him for a long time since he knew Jiang Yan.
Is it because you are too tired or because you are in a bad mood?
Gu Fei sighed against the door, like obsessive-compulsive disorder in his mind, repeatedly recalling every detail from the time when he opened his eyes to see Jiang Yan, to when Jiang Yan turned and walked into the corridor.
Can't stop anyway.
Jiang Yan's self-control is very good. It can be seen when he reviews the sprint, but he does not control his emotions very well, and often does not hide himself.
Yesterday, he felt distressed when he watched Jiang Yan work hard to control his emotions.
He wanted to say sorry, wanted to hold Jiang Yan in the past, thought a lot, but in the end, he could only sit there.
There is a sense of subtle distance between him and Chiang Kai-shek, not only because of his phone call, but also because of the blankness that has never been contacted.
When the cell phone rang, Gu Fei was still staring at the snow, and Liu Li, who came out to throw garbage, said, "Is your cell phone ringing?"
The call was made by Jiang Yan. There was no Jiang Yan's number on the old phone, but he could memorize Jiang's number.
"I thought you weren't up yet," Gu Fei answered the phone, "thinking to call again later."
"Just got up, I guess you're up," Jiang Yan's voice was still a little dumb, "I'm going with Xu Xingzhi now, have you talked to Ermiao?"
"Well," Gu Fei said, "tell her to come over to her grandma today, and a big brother will come to play with her."
"Is she willing to see me?" Jiang Yan's voice was shaking, presumably she was going downstairs.
"I'm not sure," Gu Fei looked at Gu Miao in the distance. "She couldn't express any thoughts anyway. I think she's a little excited today. She has been playing skateboarding with such a strong wind."
"Look at that a moment, if I can't, I'll avoid it," Jiang Yan said. "Is she afraid of cats?"
"Not afraid, why?" Gu Fei asked.
"Bring a very docile cat to let her play," Jiang Yan said, "see if she likes it."
"Um." Gu Fei answered.
"Then ... I'll hang up first," Jiang Yan said, "coming soon."
"Okay." Gu Fei looked at the intersection and hung up.
I don't know why. Suddenly I was nervous. Gu Fei hadn't felt this way in a long time.
Want to see Jiang Yan.
Some were afraid to see Jiang Yan.
He was anxious when Jiang Jun was not at the intersection.
When Jiang Yan came out of the corner, he quickly lifted the curtain and entered the shop.
After standing at the cashier for a while, he turned around and lifted the curtains and went out, his heart beats terribly.
Jiang Yan and Xu Xingzhi came over, Gu Fei greeted him and nodded at them: "Good morning."
"Early," Xu Xingzhi held out his hand, "I didn't have time to get to know yesterday."
"Yesterday ... I'm sorry," Gu Fei shook hands with him and looked back. "I called her over."
"Well, is that the little girl over there?" Xu Xingzhi asked.
"Yes." Gu Fei nodded, and then whistleed.
Gu Miao over there also immediately returned a whistle, then stepped on the skateboard to stop, and turned to slide over here.
"Do you usually call her like this?" Xu Xingzhi asked with a smile.
"Yes, when she skated, she was so far away that she couldn't hear her," Gu Fei said.
"It's interesting," Xu Xingzhi smiled, watching Gu Miao gliding at them, "very beautiful, little sister."
"Thank you." Gu Fei also smiled.
Jiang Yan was a little nervous. Although he always kept hope on everything and refused to give up, he always told himself that Gu Miao would make progress.
But when Gu Miao stepped on the skateboard and approached them one meter by one meter, he began to get nervous.
Gu Miao is not the key to solving his and Gu Fei's problems.
But Gu Miao is Gu Fei's unhindered stumbling block.
He was afraid that Gu Fei would be disappointed.
He was suddenly very scared. In case Gu Miao did not make any progress in the end, what kind of abyss would Gu Fei face.
Gu Miao was close to them, and he could already see the excited expression on Gu Miao's face.
"Er Miao," Gu Fei squatted, reached out and gestured to Gu Miao, "slow down."
Gu Miao's speed slowed down. When the skateboard rushed to them, she stepped on the board and stopped. She jumped on her toes and clamped the skateboard under her arm.
"My brother is back." Gu Fei said.
Gu Miao's eyes crossed Gu Fei and landed on Jiang Yan.
Jiang Yan bent down with a smile: "Er Miao."
Gu Miao looked at him without a response.
Jiang Yan slammed his fingers and raised her thumb at her.
Gu Miao held the skateboard. After a while, she swung her fingers, and then raised her thumb.
"It's great," Jiang Yan almost burst into tears at this moment, "Er Miao is awesome!"
Gu Fei looked back at him.
Jiang Yan smiled, and Gu Fei hooked his lips: "She still misses you."
"Um." Jiang Yan nodded.
"Er Miao, this is Uncle Xu ... Brother," Gu Fei pointed to Xu Xingzhi, "Brother Xu, say hello to Brother Xu."
Xu Xingzhi was standing and watching, Jiang Ye knew that he was observing the way of communication between Gu Fei and Gu Miao and Gu Miao's reaction.
Gu Miao held the skateboard and bowed at him. Xu Xingzhi smiled and squatted down: "Hello."
Gu Miao seemed a little dazed, watching him unresponsive.
"Is this your skateboard?" Xu Xingzhi pointed to the skateboard she was holding.
Gu Miao looked down at the skateboard and Xu Xingzhi said, "How did you play?"
Gu Miao glanced at him, turned to put the skateboard on the ground, stepped on with one foot up, the head of the board tilted up, and she looked back at Xu Xingzhi again.
Jiang Yan saw in her eyes the kind of provocative small eyes that appeared before Gu Miao skated with him.
"What then?" Xu Xingzhi asked.
Gu Miao's other leg also stepped on the skateboard, leaning over her body, and rushing out with this slope.
"Can she usually communicate with people like this?" Xu Xingzhi asked Gu Fei.
"Not necessarily," Gu Fei said, "half and a half, sometimes you're nervous and unhappy, it won't work."
"Well," Xu Xingzhi nodded, stood up and looked at Jiang Yan, "then we go now ... the cafe you said?"
"Let's go then," Jiang Yan said.
Gu Miao stepped on the skateboard in front and Xu Xingzhi had been watching her.
Gu Fei walked beside Xu Xing's side, Jiang took the cat bag and followed.
He was a little hesitant. Should he just walk behind, or go up side by side with Gu Fei, or go side by side with Xu?
This sudden embarrassment that was inexplicable and unpleasant made him very depressed.
Gu Fei seemed to have similar feelings to him. Jiang Yan saw him tilt his head a few times and looked back with Yu Guang. His pace slowed down and then accelerated.
"That," Gu Fei finally turned around, "is the cat in the bag?"
"Well, it's called a fat sheep," Jiang Yan said of the cat bag. "It's a senior cat."
"Look at Gu Miao's reaction to small animals for a while. My cat is a relative, like a dog, and is more suitable for contact with children." Xu Xingzhi said.
"My neighbor had raised rabbits as a kid," Gu Fei said. "She likes it. The only animal that can draw now is a rabbit."
"Show me what she paints today," Xu Xingzhi said, "what she writes and paints."
"OK." Gu Fei nodded.
After taking a few steps he turned back again: "Let me take it?"
"... No," Jiang Yan said.
Xu Xingzhi did not know whether it was intentional or unintentional. He took out his cell phone, looked at it, accelerated his pace, and came to the two of them.
Gu Fei took a slow step and Jiang Yan went up side by side with him.
"Brother," Gu Fei whispered, "how is the cost of this treatment ...?"
"He is helping," Jiang Yan said. "This time, I will contact you first to see what Ermiao's problem is. There is no cost. After treatment, he will not be charged. What kind of inspection is required? Yes, and those recovering, those costs should still be affordable. "
"Um." Gu Fei nodded.
Jiang Yan didn't say that expenses can help himself, he didn't want to make Gu Fei feel any pressure anymore, and it wasn't time to discuss expenses yet.
"Did you take care of the holidays?" Jiang Yan asked.
"Here, Ding Zhuxin has work over there," Gu Fei said, "but you can push it out these days."
"It shouldn't be used, it won't last a whole day," Jiang Yan smiled. "It doesn't affect."
Neither of them spoke anymore, and went down the school side.
This road, the two of them walked countless times, walking, driving a motorcycle, driving a small steamed bun, riding a bicycle, this trip is the most impressive one for Jiang Yan.
Every step is mixed.
There is really no one in the cafe. Not only is there no one except the coffee that can be ordered. It is a very specific cafe.
So they asked for coffee and gave Gu Miao a cup of milk.
Xu Xingzhi talked to Gu Fei first, so Jiang Yan took Gu Miao and sat down at the table next to him.
"It's called a fat sheep," Jiang Yan said, pulling his cat bag away, yelling at Gu Miao. "Er Miao, it looks like its fur isn't like a rabbit."
Gu Miao's eyes lightened when she saw the fat sheep in the bag.
"You can touch it, Ermiao." Gu Fei said.
Gu Miao hesitated, and stretched out her hand, without waiting for her hand to reach into the cat's bag, the fat sheep extended her claws into her palm.
Gu Miao turned her head sharply, watching Gu Fei excitedly.
"It likes you very much," Xu Xingzhi said, "do you want to play with it?"
Gu Miao didn't say anything, just turned her head, lay on the table, got to the cat bag, and stared at the fat sheep.
Jiang Yan was relieved. Like Gu Miao, he had a faint surprise in his heart.
It can be seen that Gu Miao likes the fat sheep very much. When the fat sheep came to her face, she kept touching the fat sheep.
Xu Xingzhi and Gu Fei sat down at a table.
Jiang Yan didn't quite understand what they were talking about, but he could almost guess what Xu Xingzhi wanted to know. Based on the psychological knowledge that he had packed into his brain during this semester without being fully digested, he should touch Gu Fei Those unwilling to mention the past.
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