Why am I so anxious?

“First of all, my goal today is to ultimately choose three pieces.”

The costume team employee added with a friendly smile.

“One is a photo call, one is a GV, and one is a closing ceremony!”

The director of photography who was in charge of Yoo Il at the last surprise party opened the office door holding a camera.

And filming for the agency’s own content began.

“Hello, this is Han Yu-il. Today is the outfit I will wear at the Berlin Film Festival…”

After looking at the camera and making a brief comment, the full-fledged fashion show began.

Yuil went back and forth between the dressing room and the mirror, putting on several sets of clothes.

From brown suit sets to long black velvet tuxedos…

‘It’s easier than I thought.’

Yuil slightly relaxed and turned his head towards the next outfit.

“Now, let’s try it on next… come on.”

Han Yu-il forgot what to say for a moment. It was an outfit that made her take back what she had just said.

The outfit the stylist brought out was a magenta-colored suit with an appropriate mix of purple and hot pink. Even the shirt worn underneath was light pink. When she looked closely, she saw that she had even made a pattern with white thread.

“If you are Yoo Il, you can digest it.”

“That’s right~!”

“…I think everyone has excessive expectations of me.”

Timid resistance did not work. Yuil obediently entered the locker room.

“···oh.”

Jang Jae-yi looked at Yoo-il with wide eyes.

“This is amazing… How does the color stick so well~?”

“Did I tell you? “You think it’ll be okay?”

Yuil, who had been skeptical, looked in the mirror and had no choice but to admit that it was not as bad as he thought.

‘It’s better than I thought.’

【Additional makeup appears to be necessary for perfect matching.】

···I know.

Yuil went back into the locker room with a sad face. After trying on a few more outfits, the final film festival outfit was decided.

At the photo call, a cobalt blue suit set with white innerwear was selected; at GV, denim pants, a gray jacket, and a casual shirt were selected; and finally, at the closing ceremony, a loose-fitting black suit and silky gray blouse were selected.

“This time it’s blue, so next time I’ll definitely go for magenta~!”

The stylist expressed disappointment, saying, ‘I can’t miss Magenta.’

After I decided on my film festival costume, the sky was already dark.

“Good job, Yuil! “Can I take you home now?”

Woojin, who was waiting in the car, stretched and asked.

– Me Talk!

Yuil was about to nod when he heard the sound of his cell phone and looked down.

“···brother.”

“Why Yuil!”

“I think you can drop me off at work.”

Min Woojin’s eyes widened at Yuil’s words.

“ok? company?”

Yuil Han looked at the message he had just received.

– Senior Park Young-hyun: Mr. Yuil. If you have time, will you come to the office?

– Senior Park Young-hyun: If you have time, can you come to the company for a moment? (Sorry for the typo.)

*

Younghyun Park was in the practice room in the basement of the company. It was a fairly spacious practice room with mirrors on three sides.

Yuil looked around and looked at the practice room.

‘This is my first time coming to the company’s practice room.’

It was a hassle to come to the office, so I practiced in my room… If I had known it would be this good, I would have written it a long time ago.

Park Young-hyeon looked at Han Yu-il’s expression and opened his mouth.

“…I guess I’m busy.”

“No, it’s okay. “I was on my way back after everything was over anyway.”

Younghyun seemed a little relieved at Yuil’s words.

“Actually, I called you because I wanted to ask you something.”

He continued speaking after a short moment of contemplation.

“I would like to ask you to practice acting.”

“Acting practice?”

And Park Young-hyun presented a scrumptious script.

The script he handed over was < Study Farming>.

【This is a film directed by Kim Jong-hwan, released 20 years ago, and has been praised as a ‘masterpiece that delicately deals with the melancholy and shadow of youth.’】

It was a movie Yuil had also seen. I was quite young when I watched the movie, so I couldn’t fully empathize with the characters, but it was a melodrama about Jin-ho, a man who dreams of becoming a writer, and Ka-hee, a woman who dreams of becoming an actress, who are conflicted between their dreams and love, ultimately meeting a tragic ending.

“I have a project I really want to do… but the director said there is one thing he wants to see before finalizing the casting.”

“ah.”

There was another person here who received a mission directly from the director.

“Is that the < Craft Training Period>?”

“yes.”

Park Young-hyun added, ‘I was told to make the male protagonist of ‘Study Farmer’ into a character different from the original.’

“I’m not sure if I’ll get better if I do it alone. However, there is no one in particular who can help. “I’m not close enough to Seon-ah to contact her separately.”

‘It’s hard to practice alone.’

The more famous and impressive the original character is, the more problematic this becomes. The problem is that no matter how much you practice, you end up imitating the ‘actor acting’ rather than the character. At some point, you become unable to tell whether you are imitating your voice or acting.

Yuil also knew this because he had experienced it when he practiced prayers alone.

···for a moment.

‘Then isn’t this also a kind of reinterpretation?’

Bwyn expressed his tacit agreement through silence. Yuil immediately opened his mouth.

“great. Let’s practice together.”

“···Thank you.”

Yuil turned his attention to the scenario.

‘Now that I think about it, this is the role that senior Hwang Yi-won played.’

【That’s right. After debuting in < Pretty Brothers>, actress Hwang Yi-won began to receive recognition for her acting skills through < Travel>.】

Jin-ho in < Study Farm>, played by Hwang Yi-won, is a quiet and calm character with a more mature aura than his peers. However, he was a person who enjoyed all kinds of bold fantasies in his head.

Yuil turned his eyes to the page Younghyeon had checked.

[S#25 Jooho’s room, night

Kahi: Hey, why are you looking down like this?

Jooho: …just.

Kahi: Are you here again? That ‘blue time’?

Juho continues to lie down without answering.

Kahi: Let’s go out. Wouldn’t it be much better if you got some sunlight?

Juho: It’s better to stay still.

Kahi: What are you doing by staying still?

Juho: Just lying down. As if floating on water.

Kahi: Continue?

Jooho: Continue.]

“···.”

Park Young-hyun swallowed his saliva without realizing it while watching Yu Il carefully read the scenario.

It was my first request to someone, especially a fellow actor. After thinking about it for a while, a text message was sent, but I didn’t expect him to come right away.

Han Yu-il, who had been sitting on the floor and carefully reading the script for about ten minutes, got up from his seat.

“Shall we begin?”

“···Already?”

Yuil opened his mouth.

“First of all, since this is our first time, shall we keep it light? “I will do it thinking that I am reading the script for the first time… so I think it would be good for you to do it thinking that you are just guessing the lines.”

Park Young-hyun nodded, cleared his throat, and lay down.

He rested his back, hands, and legs on the floor and closed his eyes as if dreaming.

“hey. “Why are you looking down like this?”

The one and only ‘Gahi’.

The moment Younghyun heard that voice for the first time, he was a little surprised.

‘···It’s completely different.’

It’s completely different from the singer from < Study of Learning> 20 years ago. Even though I only heard one word, I could tell there was a difference, from the way they spoke to their personalities.

“···just.”

As Jooho responds weakly, Kahi sits down next to Jooho.

“Are you here again? That ‘blue time’?”

Juho glances at Kahi with narrowed eyes and then closes his eyes again.

Well then.

Kahi sighs softly and touches Jooho’s arm.

“Let’s go out. “It would be much better if I got some sunlight.”

Younghyeon couldn’t help but compare the original singer and Yuil’s singer.

Kahi in the original was much more immature and lively. In comparison, ‘Gahi’, played by Yu Il now…

‘You look like a tired office worker.’

The way he persuaded Jooho by saying, ‘Let’s at least get some sunlight’ was also different. While the previous Kahi felt like a child throwing a tantrum, the current Kahi seems to be giving advice.

“It’s better to stay still.”

“What are you doing by staying still?”

“Just lying down. “Like floating on water.”

“…continue?”

Kahi asks. With one eyebrow raised.

“continue.”

It was strange.

As the conversation continued, Younghyun felt like he was insisting on something nonsensical.

“···I’m not.”

Since when did it start?

Younghyun forgot the singer from the original.

“Isn’t it better to move? “I’d rather run, throw a ball… doing things like that will relieve some of the stress.”

Younghyun opens his eyes. slowly.

And I look at Kahi.

Kahi dreams of becoming an actress. Despite this, Kahi continues to work part-time. Gahee goes to auditions whenever she gets the chance and goes wherever directors hang out…

Jooho suddenly realized. Kahi was a much more rational and mature ‘adult’ than herself, who lived in fantasy.

When that thought occurred to me, I became irritated without realizing it.

“Envy you.”

A sarcastic comment comes out without realizing it.

“what?”

“You don’t seem worried.”

Juho opens his eyes with a look of regret at the sharp response that comes back immediately.

“Why am I not worried?”

By the time I spoke up, it was already too late. Juho starts coming up with excuses.

“No, I just spend time worrying about this and that all the time…”

Kahi looks down at Jooho.

Is it because of the lighting? Normally, I thought the eyes were a bit bright. The eyes gradually become darker.

“No. That means. “You think I’m a lazy kid who doesn’t think about anything, right?”

No, no.

Jooho shakes his head wildly.

“I have never thought that way…”

…is it true that it doesn’t exist?

Kahi’s face becomes increasingly cold as she sees Jooho’s expression.

“Are you doing that on purpose? Let’s see what happens if we get this far, and let’s see what we do if we get to this point… Then we’ll see if it explodes or not, right?”

“Why do you say that again?”

“···Am I wrong?”

Jooho can’t look at Gahee’s face. Kahi, who speaks quietly, said something so true.

“okay. “You are right.”

I’m crying.

A warm feeling rose from deep in my heart.

“You are pathetic. It’s so pathetic that I have nothing to say. it’s okay?”

It was anger. However, it was not anger towards Kahi.

The dagger thrown at Kahi returns to Jooho like a boomerang.

Juho gritted his teeth as he felt his chest throbbing.

“···Seniors.”

Yuil, who returned to his normal speaking tone, called out to Younghyeon. The next question was unexpected.

“How many more times should we try?”

“···!”

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As practice continued, their characters became increasingly clear.

After exchanging lines several times, it was already getting close to midnight.

“···I think I’ve got the hang of it now.”

– Grumble.

Perhaps because I had been concentrating for several hours, I felt extremely hungry as soon as practice ended.

After agreeing to keep it a secret from each other’s trainers, the two ordered a new corn cheese chicken from a famous brand.

Park Young-hyun had a blank expression on his face as he tore into the chicken sprinkled with a lot of sweet and salty powder.

Only after finishing the ordered chicken did he open his mouth.

“···I want to ask you something. “What were you thinking when you first played Kahi?”

“It’s just like what I said earlier. “I thought it was the first script I received on set.”

Younghyun Park nodded with a calm face. Thinking about something and actually doing it are definitely different. He knew it himself too. He just didn’t work out.

However, Younghyun’s eyes widened slightly at the words that followed.

“I don’t worry about how I’m going to act or how that performance will look.”

“···!”

This was the advice Yuil received from Bwin when he first started reading the script.

At that time, the achievement rate figure displayed on the translucent window flashed.

【3rd stage goal achievement rate: 28.1%】

“Thank you today.”

“no. “It was fun.”

Although it was a little tiring, it was fun, and the achievement rate also increased.

This kills two birds with one stone.

“And you can stop talking, senior.”

“···You don’t have to call me senior either. “You can speak comfortably.”

An awkward silence follows.

Yuil opened his mouth first.

“Then I’ll call you brother from now on.”

“Good… good.”

···It’s strange. Why does it seem more awkward?

As Yuil was slowly leaving the practice room, a low voice rang out from behind him.

“…I wanted to talk about it at the after-party.”

Younghyun continued speaking with his eyes fixed on the corner of the practice room.

“It was nice to act together.”

*

“Ah… time doesn’t pass.”

Hyejin Lee was lying on the bed and making a groaning sound.

Four days later was the online fan meeting. It felt like a month had passed!

‘Let’s see my actor Shastana.’

Although Han Yu-il still wasn’t good at taking selfies, he was eager to communicate with his fans.

[@1_and_only

(photo) (photo)

It’s cold. Have a good day today, everyone!]

‘I was told to leave the country the day after the online fan meeting.’

The Berlin Film Festival. My heart pounded as I thought about Han Yu-il shining on the red carpet.

Hyejin Lee’s fingers, which were going back and forth between Shasta and Blue Chat with a happy face, suddenly stopped.

[@yuuuulwife I love Han Yuil to death]

[@yuuuulwife ㅅㅂThe more I look at you, the more handsome you look]

Up to this point, I thought it was an ordinary Han Yu-il fan account.

Because that’s what I say every day.

[@yuuuulwife What perfume should I use]

[@yuuuulwife I miss you, I miss you, I miss you]

[@yuuuulwife When will the next film be filmed.. I have to go to the post-production meeting ㅠ]

[@yuuuulwife I heard it’s Yuljib XX building, is that correct?]

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[@yuuuulwife found it]

Hyejin Lee clenched her hands tightly in a cold mood.

‘What is this new X?’

It was an account that no one with 0 followers was interested in, so there was no need to worry about it.

···however,

‘Why am I so anxious?’