On the second day, this is the update of the second episode.

If you haven't seen the previous episode, let's start with that.

 

This time, I will send it from the perspective of Lanzas.

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For as long as I can remember, I've been in pain.

A peculiar constitution with insane and powerful magical powers in its body.

It's something that constantly hurts my body from the inside out and continues to inflict pain.

 

"Please, don't do anything, for your own sake......

"We can't do anything to you...... I'm sorry.'

 

Those were the words that my parents told me when I was a child, and whose faces are now hazy.

I don't hold a grudge against my parents for abandoning me, who can easily release magic and hurt those around me if I disturb my emotions.

After all, he raised a dangerous being that could explode at any moment until he was old enough to remember. Rather, we should be grateful.

Normally, a monster like me would have been abandoned as a baby and died in the wild without even knowing it existed.

 

Then I was alone.

 

I was placed in an institution, where I was also feared by those around me, but I endured it by suppressing it so as not to hurt anyone.

Spend each day telling yourself to endure the pain and get used to being avoided and being scared.

I assumed that was my normal.

 

"Mr. Lanzas, Your Majesty has discovered your qualities. I want to appoint you as a hero candidate.'

 

When I came of age and left the orphanage, a messenger from the kingdom of Milva came to me.

In the blink of an eye, I became a hero...... No, now that I think about it, it was taken in as a national weapon.

 

"I'm ...... No, my name is Rain! From today onwards, I will serve as your squire!"

 

And because of my weak body, Rain, a boy of my age who had just turned ten, became my squire.

A healing wizard introduced by the kingdom for me, who is constantly in pain and cannot move properly unless I forcibly activate recovery magic.

I was fortunate to meet Layne, who, like me, was an orphan and was still a young boy.

 

"Eh, are you scared? Lanzas? You don't think so, do you?'

 

Even though I was made to be a troublesome servant, he followed me without a single disgusting face.

I'm sure Rain feels indebted to me, but that's not the case.

I was always the one who was helped.

Everything she felt indebted to was something she had done to repay Rain's kindness.

 

"Yu, Lanzas the Brave!! Do something about that storm!! You can do it!?'

 

An unprecedented storm swept through the capital of the Kingdom of Milva.

A direct hit would kill a lot of people Mr./Ms. and leave them without a place to live.

At the king's command, I confronted the calamities brought by nature with Rain.

 

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

 

As a result, I survived the storm and saved the city.

I did it, even though I released a rampaging amount of magic, my arms were torn apart by the overflowing magic, and I vomited blood from the load on my body.

For the sake of a large number of people, a feat that no one can do to push back a natural disaster.

To be honest, I was proud to be able to use this power in a proper way for the first time.

With the power that only caused such pain, I was able to help someone.

I found a reason why I was here.

This will be recognized by someone.

 

That fact alone paid off...... That's what I thought.

 

"...... to be alone in such a storm?"

"It's not normal......

"Monster......

 

Neither the castle nor the people of the city thought so.

Same as with my parents.

Gazes and voices that are afraid of me and try to keep me away.

Even the king, who was supposed to have commanded me, looked at me like a monster and did not hide his frightened reaction.

 

"Isn't this too much...... Lanzas helped a lot of Mr./Ms. people......

 

As I watched Rain grief, I felt empty.

I realized that no matter how much pain I endured, no matter how much hope I found in others, I was never going to be blessed by anyone.

 

A short time later, I met "him."

 

"Are you Lanzas? My name is Ember.'

 

Blonde man with black bat wings.

The man, who wore an intoxicating, sweet air from the back of his head, intensified his flirtatious smile when he introduced himself to me.

 

"You have amazing magical powers, don't you?"

"Oh my gosh, it's unparalleled even in our time."

"It's called a mutation."

"But the people in this country are terrible to you."

"But that's human nature, so I don't care."

"Man is a fool who fears those who are better than him."

 

En said this in rapid succession, without even having time for me to interject, and held out his hand to me in a familiar manner.

 

"Shall I do something about that body?"

 

I knew it was a suspicious story.

This guy is a demon who is using me for something.

But the proposal was still appealing.

If I can be free from this pain, maybe I can live like a normal human being.

 

"Tell me more about ———."

 

In the end, I signed a contract.

It was the first time I bent myself, but I didn't regret it at the time.

 

I mean, it's a little bit better.

 

I've put up with a lot of things until now, even if I'm being selfish.

At least once, I acted selfishly.

If that ruins you, that's fine.

 

At the end of the day, I wasn't defeated by the whispers of the devil named Envar, but by myself.

 

But now that I think about it, I was desperate.

I gave up on my life, stopped expecting from others, and made a deal with the devil.

And the other reason is ——— rain.

 

If only I could be left alone because I wouldn't live long...... He entrusts the child to the healing wizard of the Ringle Kingdom, who will attend the festival, and then dies.

It would be better for Rain, and above all, it would free her from the narrow space of the kingdom of Milva.

 

●

 

The last memory I remember is of Usato and the black-haired girl trying to rip Enver away from me.

The next time I opened my eyes, I was lying on a bed in an unfamiliar room.

The scenery outside the window is dark, and the only light in the room is the light of the magic tool by the bedside, so I know that it is night, but .......

 

"——— huh?"

 

When I woke up, the first thing I felt was discomfort.

That is, do not feel pain in your body.

 

"Huh!"

 

I have a sense of smell, touch, and taste, and even if I pinch my arm, I have a proper sense of pain.

However, when I wake up confused by the fact that the "pain" that has always been close to me for the past 20 years of my life is gone, I notice that someone is sitting by the bed where I am lying.

 

「…… Usato, Mr./Ms.?"

「……」

 

Mr./Ms. Usato, a young man sitting in a chair with his arms crossed, sleeping dexterously with his eyes closed.

 

"Hey, are you sleeping?"

 

Why is he here? The moment I had this question, I woke up in bed and my mind was foggy, and I finally remembered why I was here and what I did.

 

"Oh my God...... Huh?"

 

I was taken over by Enver and put the kingdom of Kamherio in danger.

He destroyed the city with his magic and almost killed Rain, but Usato stopped him by force.

 

"Have you woken up, Mr./Ms. Lanzas?"

"Huh?"

 

I am tormented by regret, but I am called out.

When I looked there, I saw Mr./Ms. Usato with a black owl on his shoulder looking at me with his eyes open.

 

"Mr./Ms. Usato, you were asleep......

"No, I was just sleeping lightly...... Nea"

"Whew...... yes, I know."

 

The owl on Mr./Ms.'s shoulder rubs its eyes languidly as it flutters its wings out of the room.

Mr./Ms. Usato saw off the situation with a wry smile and shifted her gaze to me.

 

"How are you feeling?"

「…… I don't have any pain."

 

The physical pain that has been attached to my life for a long time has disappeared like a lie.

But when it's gone, you don't know what kind of emotions to feel.

 

"Eh, do you mean you don't have a sense of pain!?"

"No, no, I have a feeling."

 

Darn it.

I made him panic because I didn't communicate it well.

I immediately put a hand on my shoulder and shook my head at him as he cast a healing spell on me.

 

"The pain I used to feel is gone...... I'm confused."

"Are there any other anomalies?"

"I don't think so."

 

Also, I feel that my body is sensually light.

If in the past, wagons were full of luggage and it was difficult to move, now all the luggage is lighter...... It's like that.

Mr./Ms. Usato is relieved at my words.

 

"Huh...... I can't say anything until I see how it goes, but I'm glad it seems to be okay for the time being."

"What'......s going on in my body?"

"I'll explain it briefly."

 

Mr./Ms. said that in the process of tearing Enver away from me, he and Enver were stripped of my magical powers.

After a brief explanation, Usato's hands were placed on his knees and his head bowed deeply.

 

"I'm sorry."

「…… Why do you apologize? I'd rather apologize ...... you."

 

He never apologized.

But why?

 

"I've attacked you so many times, even if it's to free you from Ember."

"Huh...... You didn't abandon me and tried to help me. How can I blame you for causing so much trouble......

 

Compared to what I did, the pain of being beaten was not enough.

 

"Lanzas!"

"Ray, Ng?"

 

Rain bursts into the room where Mr./Ms. and I are, and reaches the bed, almost tangling her legs.

A little later, an unfamiliar black-haired, red-eyed girl and Inukami-dono, who is wearing an apron for some reason, arrive in the room.

 

"I've told the people in the castle about it, Usato."

"What a timing for him to wake up while I'm making a late-night snack!!"

 

Regardless of the hectic room at once, Rain rushes at me with a rage.

 

"You're an idiot!! Why do you despise yourself so much!!"

"I'm sorry......."

 

But this child's anger is understandable.

For Rain's sake, I ignored her wishes and acted out of selfish thoughts.

 

"Causing trouble to various people!!"

"Yes......."

"Let me worry so much!!"

"Yes......."

"If you do it next time, I'll really ...... you!"

 

I don't know what to do, but I feel like Rain is getting a little rough.

 

"Well, Lanzas has woken up, so let's talk about his treatment for now."

"Oh, yes."

 

Inukami nodded at the words of the black-haired, red-eyed girl, and she moved to the side of Usato, who was sitting in a chair.

My treatment...... I am willing to accept any punishment.

Inukami-dono, who was nervous, lightly raised his index finger to me.

 

"For the time being, you're missing after a battle with the devil."

「…… Huh?"

 

What's up, Fumei?

Instead of punishing, why missing? Inukami-don smiles wryly at me as I am taken aback.

 

"This is a conclusion that has been reached after negotiations with His Majesty Lambda, and of course he agrees. After this, you will recuperate here in secret until the situation is resolved, and then you will be guided by Leona, the Hero of Miarak, to Miarak."

"Well, wait!!"

 

I raise my voice in a hurry when the story proceeds before I understand it.

 

"So, what about the Kingdom of Milva...... How will that country react? Then it would be better to hand me over ......."

"On the surface, it's going to be peaceful."

 

If I hand over my guilt to the Kingdom of Milva, I will take all the responsibility and that will be the end of it.

Inukami-dono, too, nodded as if he understood that, but his gaze was frighteningly sharp, suggesting a kind of coldness.

 

"But what happens then?" What's the point of sending you back to a country that brings demons to its own heroes?"

「……」

"At best, it's a lifetime in prison, and at worst, it's an execution, and that's not what anyone here wants."

 

Certainly, that's true.

Mirva...... No, that country could have gone either way in the end.

That my body will be taken over by Enver and that I will die.

For that country, having lost my magic and returned to being a normal person, the only value left for me is a convenient pillar to impose this crime.

 

"We may be able to crush the Kingdom of Milva in this matter, but it doesn't make sense, because the demon Enver has been neutralized. If you get cut, it's hard to pursue it further."

「……」

"However, if you are dead and not missing, the Milva Kingdom will naturally demand that your body be handed over.

"So you're missing?"

"It seems that it would be more convenient for His Majesty Lambda."

 

Even so, there will still be problems.

In response to my question, Inukami completely changed his cold impression from earlier, and gave a thumbs up with a smile.

 

"Well, my servant Usato-kun has a great connection, so it's okay to leave it to him!!"

 

Usato puts a hand on his shoulder by the hero Inukami and looks at me with a wry smile.

 

"As you say, leave the help to me."

"Usato Mr./Ms., that ...... Why is Master Lanzas in Miarak?"

 

Indeed, why am I in Miarak?

I can still understand the Ringle Kingdom with the Mr./Ms. of Usato, but ......?

 

"I can't reveal it here, but Mialak is someone I trust...... There are. Then, if you need to hide...... There is also the idea of recuperating in the land of beastmen."

"What, the land of beastmen?"

 

It's true that Miarak is a country next to the land of beastmen.

It's not a place you can go normally.

 

"Maybe Mr./Ms. Lanzas is worse at beastmen?"

"No, not really......

 

Rather, in the Milva Kingdom, I rarely see beastmen, so I don't have a strong sense of weakness.

As far as I was concerned, I was so busy with myself that I didn't have time to worry about it.

 

"Good, I have a friend of mine who is the chief of the Beastman Tribe, so I'm thinking of discussing it with you on another matter."

「「……」」

 

It's not normal for someone to be revealed here, but it's strange that sending him to the land of beastmen is an option.

But...... Maybe this person is going to make it possible.

 

「…… I understand that you feel guilty, even if it is caused by Envar's will. I think I'm willing to give up my life to make amends."

「…… Huh?"

 

Usato tells me what I am thinking, and I am at a loss for words.

 

"I once said something similar to the Demon Lord, who had a very bad personality......

 

Usato smiled wryly at me and continued to speak.

 

"It sounds good to die and make amends, but you're just escaping to the easy way, and it's much harder to live to make amends."

「…… That's it."

"Mr./Ms. Lanzas, don't tell me that you don't have long or that you leave Rain to me, but live. ———You've learned to live like a human being."

 

With those words, I finally got a sense of reality.

I'm embarrassed to say that the thought didn't come to my mind.

 

"If you want to atone for your sins, then, do you understand?"

「…… Mr./Ms. Usato. Thank you very much."

 

Say words of gratitude instead of apologies.

——— can live.

Strongly reflecting on this fact, I once again thanked Usato.

Usato, on the other hand, smiled contentedly, as if relieved———、

 

"Okay, now I've got one out...... Cha......"

 

While sitting in the chair, I was weak and looked down.

Rain and I were surprised to see him suddenly look down, and when we looked at him in a hurry, we saw that he was asleep in his chair.

 

"Usato Mr./Ms.!?"

"Acha"

"You were too reckless, Usato-kun."

 

As he falls asleep as if he is going to pass out, the girl called Nea and Inukamido smile wryly.

 

"Well, I've been treating the wounded, helping to clear the rubble, and I've been watching you for a long time, so it looks like I've finally run out of power."

"Now, until now?"

"Yes, it's been a long time now, it's really stupid."

 

His fight was watched through Ember.

Did he keep moving after that fight......

Before his physical strength, his mental strength to keep moving so far seemed more frightening.

 

"Suzune, you're right."

"Oh, I can't help it at all, Usato-kun."

"Stop that face."

 

The heroes Inukami and Nea put Usato's arms around his neck and lift him up from both sides.

 

"Okay, we're going to give him a rest, and we'll talk about the rest."

"Usato-kun's weight is amazing."

"So stop that face."

 

As it was, Inukami-don and Nea walked out of the room with Usato in their arms.

Rain and I were left speechless, and a moment of silence reigned in the room.

 

「……」

 

Do you want to talk about it properly?

That's true.

Ever since I came here, I've been making excuses for this child's sake, and I've been ignoring Rain's wishes for a long time.

 

"Rain"

「…… Yes."

 

I don't need healing magic anymore.

Maybe Rain understands that, but I didn't make him my squire just because he was a healing wizard to me.

He answers by placing his hand on Rain's head, whose eyes are flickering anxiously.

 

"Would you like to be a friend of me, not a servant?"

「…… Tsu! Mr. Lanzas!!"

 

There will be no pain in the rest of my life.

Then, let's not think backwards anymore and change ourselves.

As a first step, let's start by becoming friends with this girl who adores me helplessly.