TN: Thank Peanut for the chapter. Last chapter from them.

“If it’s like this, then who am I supposed to hate?”

The moment I heard those words, my heart sank. Helena was crying.

“…Uh, ah, um…”

I couldn’t say anything. Helena’s crying face looked so sorrowful that, even though she was angry… even though she couldn’t accept this situation,

I could feel her kind heart that couldn’t bring itself to hate me.

I couldn’t say anything.

Flailing my hands in confusion, I eventually took a deep breath and rubbed my face with both hands.

There was nothing I could do.

***

Empty.

Sylvia felt that way without even realizing it herself.

She had been in high spirits when she had just returned from going to the city with Felix. For a while, her heart had been pounding so much she thought she’d go crazy.

If she were to officially date him, she would be so excited that days like this would continue that she couldn’t even sleep.

When she lay in bed, his gentle smile came to mind, his caring gestures came to mind, and his soft voice echoed in her ears.

Every time she thought of him, her heart would pound as if it was about to burst, her face would turn red, and when she stood before him, a voice so feminine it surprised even herself would come out.

Every gesture was infused with coquetry, and she could feel honey dripping from her voice.

Even Sylvia, who had received countless blind emotions of love, was surprised at her appearance when she fell in love.

It was hard to believe an emotion could change someone like this.

Such feelings of floating on air and excitement suddenly cooled down.

“Felix…”

From the moment she heard the news that he had entered the girls’ dormitory to find Helena,

Sylvia lay on her bed, blankly calling his name, and looked at the ceiling with blurry eyes.

Helena and Felix.

Sylvia also knew well that the two were childhood friends. She also knew that Helena had liked Felix for a very long time.

When she became aware of her own feelings for Felix, that was the part that concerned her the most.

She also knew that the two weren’t on good terms now for some reason. Because of this timing, she could suggest a date that would have surprised him.

If that wasn’t the case, it would have been a given that Helena would intervene.

Yes.

Helena and Felix are close. Unlike Sylvia, they’ve spent a long time together, and clearly have more shared memories.

Sylvia might not have had room to intervene if it hadn’t been for this situation. That’s why she didn’t want to waste this golden opportunity.

Of course, Felix likes her… but still.

A little anxiety was unavoidable. In this situation, with neither Crown Princess Ashillya nor Helena…

In this situation where all competitors were away from Felix’s side, she tried to establish her relationship with him as a fait accompli, but…

Felix went to Helena.

No matter how close their relationship was known to be, she couldn’t help but feel disappointed. With a slightly empty heart, Sylvia let out a small sigh.

But anyway, the one Felix liked was her.

‘Yes, that’s right.’

If they remained just close friends, she could understand that much with a broad mind.

Even if he became Helena’s boyfriend, even if they became husband and wife, she had no intention of completely ending their relationship.

“He’ll come back anyway.”

Because the one he loved was her.

***

In a state where Helena had calmed down, we faced each other calmly again.

Of course, we didn’t have much time as we didn’t know when the dormitory supervisor might come.

In fact, it was a huge miracle that I could stay in Helena’s room until now. It wouldn’t have been strange if I had been kicked out long ago.

“Anyway, I understand your situation well.”

“…Yes.”

Helena said, taking a deep breath as if trying to calm herself down.

Feeling like a criminal again, I nodded and responded to Helena’s words. Looking at me like this, she crossed her arms and spoke, still looking at me with reddened eyes.

“I understand it wasn’t something you intended and why you couldn’t tell me.”

“Yes, thank you.”

“But that doesn’t mean,”

Helena’s eyes still looked sad. Therefore, I couldn’t expect a positive answer from her either.

But since I didn’t come to apologize to be forgiven by her in the first place, I could steel my heart.

“That I can forgive you.”

“…I understand.”

I answered her words calmly, with my eyes lowered.

Although I tried hard to be calm, my voice was still trembling at the end. But the same was true for Helena.

Her uncontrolled emotions were also leaking out in her voice.

“For now, I resent you. I can’t accept the fact that Felix is gone.”

I probably won’t be able to understand Helena’s feelings. I have never experienced a situation like hers, even once.

However, that doesn’t mean I couldn’t relate at all. Losing a precious person must be a tremendous pain.

“I understand,”

“But anyway.”

“…”

“…Felix can’t come back, can he?”

If there’s one thing that both Helena and I vaguely know, it’s probably that Felix can’t come back.

I was feeling that fact a little more clearly than Helena.

I felt his memories seeping into my head, and Lee Shin-woo and Felix will gradually become one.

But even so, there was no need to tell Helena that fact. If the one who occupied Felix’s body said that he and Felix were one, it would only add fuel to the fire.

“Probably, it seems that way.”

Anyway, if what I’m thinking is true… no, I’m half certain it’s almost true, but if so, there was no chance Felix could return.

Unless I’m suddenly ejected back to my original world.

“Yes, then…”

Helena took a deep breath as if she had made some decision and quietly looked at me.

Not knowing how or what she would say, I took a breath like her and stared straight into her eyes.

I was still a little afraid to meet Helena’s eyes, but I felt that at that moment, I had to face Helena’s eyes straight on.

“Live properly. For Felix’s too.”

Helena’s words hit me like a truck.

It was partly because her words felt touching, but I could also feel how much thought and worry she must have gone through to say this to me.

For her, who had lost her loved one, to say to the one who had unintentionally taken her loved one from her…

To say to live for him…

It couldn’t have been easy at all.

“…I definitely will.”

Until now.

I hadn’t done anything to be ashamed of. Still, I answered with even more determination, and Helena showed a faint, sad smile.

“I’ll be watching you.”

“Yes.”

Helena won’t stick by my side like before.

What she loved was Felix, and Helena had concluded that I wasn’t Felix.

But she didn’t seem to intend to distance herself too much either.

“You said you felt like an impurity in this world, right?”

“…”

“So live as Felix. You and I will remember who you are. In this world, live as Felix.”

In fact, Helena wasn’t the only one worrying. Unlike me, Felix had a family.

Helena told me to hide this fact from the family because that would be the best way for me to survive in this world as Felix.

“But,”

“…”

“You have to treat them well. Felix really cherished his family.”

“I know.”

In Felix’s memories, his family was precious. As much as Helena in front of me.

So, not to survive as Felix, but to truly become family to them…

I…

Had to make an effort. Even more so.

When I nodded at Helena’s words, she finally smiled as if reassured. Although I saw her smile like this after a long time, I couldn’t return it.

Instead, I was only making a promise to myself.

Because I am Lee Shin-woo and Felix.

Because I had decided to inherit his life and had made that decision.

I would help Helena to be happy too.

I would definitely, absolutely do so.